My therapist recently noted how much inner work and wrestling I must be constantly doing as a nurse, without being fully aware of what is rumbling underneath the surface. Today I find myself feeling really tender, and I’ve got a feeling it’s because of the recent accumulation of patient stories that have gone unpacked, evoking … Continue reading The Tensions We Constantly Navigate as Healthcare Workers
FREE 7-Day E-Devotional: Gritty Gospel-Based Reflections for Nurses in the Trenches
As a Christian pediatric ICU nurse who has seen all the terrible things, I can’t stomach platitudes, including Christian platitudes. Those who have followed my writing here know that I have spent a lot of time wrestling with questions like "Where is God in the PICU - cases of injustice" and issues such as the … Continue reading FREE 7-Day E-Devotional: Gritty Gospel-Based Reflections for Nurses in the Trenches
A Beautiful Feel-Good Story about a Former Patient
*This incredible story is shared with full consent from my former patient. The story that brought him into our ICU was the kind of story that hits all of us peds ICU nurses in a particularly painful way. Previously healthy, just doing clap push-ups at home when whatever it was in his spine went awry. … Continue reading A Beautiful Feel-Good Story about a Former Patient
Is Compartmentalization the Best Way to Manage our Emotions as Nurses?
I hear so many people say, "I don't know how you do your job as a pediatric ICU nurse." The advice I hear from so many around me about how to last for the long haul in this profession usually runs along the following lines: "Leave work at work." "When you clock out, you have … Continue reading Is Compartmentalization the Best Way to Manage our Emotions as Nurses?
My EndWell Talk is Live! Practioner, Parent, Patient
Being invited to speak at EndWell's annual symposium last year was such an incredible honor. I LOVED giving this talk. People say all the time, "I don't know how you do the work that you do as a pediatric ICU nurse without being overwhelmed by all the emotions." "I don't know how you can be … Continue reading My EndWell Talk is Live! Practioner, Parent, Patient
Asking Beautiful New Questions as a Seasoned Nurse
Having worked in my current PICU for a little over 13 years now, I find that it’s easy for me to get comfortable with the way I’ve learned to go about things, without taking moments to approach my practice with a more curious, teachable heart. I’m discovering how refreshing it can be when I remember … Continue reading Asking Beautiful New Questions as a Seasoned Nurse
On Talking with Third Graders about Pediatric ICU Nursing
I recently had the opportunity to talk to my eight-year old daughter and her third grade classmates for their school’s Career Day. This was my first time talking about peds ICU (PICU) nursing with such a young crowd, and I was nervous. How do I hold their attention? How do I keep the descriptions of … Continue reading On Talking with Third Graders about Pediatric ICU Nursing
The Art of Timing in Caring for Dying Pediatric Patients
Knowing what time it is as a peds ICU nurse is a big deal. There’s the timing of med administration so you dose your patient safely. The timing of when your critical blood pressure and sedation medications are going to run out, and boy you better have your next syringe ready to go. The timing … Continue reading The Art of Timing in Caring for Dying Pediatric Patients
Encouraging Healthy Grief over our Patients
Yesterday, I gave my favorite lecture to young nurses who are about eight months into this wild profession. What follows below is a series of posts on Threads that I put up, as I reflected on the lecture. The lecture was on Bereavement and Caregiver Resiliency, because to this day we still have so few … Continue reading Encouraging Healthy Grief over our Patients
New Blog Post for American Journal of Nursing: The Pitfalls of Being the Nice Patient
My newest blog post for American Journal of Nursing is up! When I and my husband both had significant medical crises last year, we wanted to be “nice” patients. As a nurse myself, I was hugely sympathetic to the stress and time pressures for those healthcare workers taking care of us. But instead of getting … Continue reading New Blog Post for American Journal of Nursing: The Pitfalls of Being the Nice Patient
The Heart of Nursing 